Wednesday, January 13, 2010

The Cross

Recently, I've been really convicted to re-assess the value of the Cross in my life, of what it means to me, and how it should affect the way I live. I think its really easy to take that aspect of our salvation for granted or even to forget about it at times because we're so used to the story. But last night, I read something that made me see the Cross in a brand new light, from a completely different perspective. Yeah, I can simply say Jesus died on the cross for my sins. But what does that really mean? I never thought about the implications of that sentence till now.

This is an excerpt from a book called When God Weeps by Steven Estes and Joni Eareckson. It gives a very provocative account of the death of Christ and what was really going on that day.

The face that Moses had begged to see- was forbidden to see- was slapped bloody. (Ex 33:19-20)
The thorns that God had sent to curse the earth's rebellion now twisted around his own brow...
"On your back with you!" One raises mallet to sink in the spike. But the soldier's heart must continue pumping as he readies the prisoner's wrist. Someone must sustain the soldier's life minute by minute, for no man has this power on his own. Who supplies breath to his lungs? Who gives energy to his cells? Who holds his molecules together? Only by the Son do "all things hold together" (Colossians 1:17) The victim wills that the soldier live on-he grants the warriors continued existence. The man swings.
As the man swings, the Son recalls how he and the Father first designed the medial nerve of the human forearm-- the sensations it would be capable of. The design proves flawless-- the nerves perform exquisitely. "Up you go!" They lift the cross. God is on display in his underwear and can scarcely breathe.
But these pains are a mere warm-up to his other and growing dread. He begins to feel a foreign sensation. Somewhere during this day, an unearthly foul odor began to waft, not around his nose, but his heart. He feels dirty. Human wickedness starts to crawl upon his spotless being-- the living excrement from our souls. The apple of his Father's eye turns brown with rot.
His Father! He must face his Father like this!
From heaven the Father now rouses himself like a lion disturbed, shakes his mane, and roars against the shriveling remnant of a man hanging on a cross. Never has the Son seen the Father look at him so, never felt even the least of his hot breath. But the roar shakes the unseen world and darkens the visible sky. The Son does not recognize these eyes.
"Son of Man, why have you behaved so? You have cheated, lusted, stolen, gossiped-- murdered, envied, hated, lied. You have cursed, robbed, overspent, overeaten-- fornicated, disobeyed, embezzled, and blasphemed. Oh the duties you have shirked, the children you have abandoned! Who has ever so ignored the poor, so played the coward, so belittled my name? Have you ever held your razor tongue? What a self-righteous, pitiful drunk-- you who molest young boys, peddle killer drugs, travel in cliques, and mock your parents. Who gave you the boldness to rig elections, foment revolutions, torture animals, and worship demons? Does the list never end! Splitting families, raping virgins, acting smugly, playing the pimp-- buying politicians, practicing exhortation, filming pornography, accepting bribes. You have burned down buildings, perfected terrorist tactics, founded false religions, traded in slaves, -- relishing each morsel and bragging about it all. I hate, loathe these things in you! Disgust for everything about you consumes me! Can you not feel my wrath?"
Of course the Son is innocent. He is blamelessness itself. The Father knows this. But the divine pair have an agreement, and the unthinkable must now take place. Jesus will be treated as if personally responsible for every sin ever committed.
The Father watches as his heart's treasure, the mirror image of himself, sinks drowning into raw, liquid sin. Jehovah's stored rage against humankind from every century explodes in a single direction.
"Father! Father! Why have you forsaken me?!"
But heaven stops its ears. The Son stares up at the one who cannot, who will not, reach down or reply.
The Trinity had planned it. The Son endured it. The Spirit enabled him. The Father rejected the Son whom he loved. Jesus, the God-man from Nazareth, perished. The Father accepted his sacrifice for sin and was satisfied. The Rescue was accomplished.

Today's bible reading was Psalms 3-5. In those Psalms, David cries out to God for help during his times of affliction, and God answers. ( 3: 4) Not only does He answer, but He gives David strength and delivers him from whatever he's going through. He fills his heart with everlasting joy and protects him from his enemies. (4:7-8) Yet on the cross, God turned a blind eye toward Jesus' distress. He chose not to hear His beloved Son's cries for help. His Son who in essence, did nothing wrong. And instead, He chooses to love me. I, who sin on a daily basis, I who sometimes forget what Jesus did for me that day, I who took all of it for granted.
Wow. How can I not give my all to you? How can I fret over these little details in a life that I haven't even bought for my own? How can I ever thank you enough...

~Manuela

Monday, January 11, 2010

Week One

So, going into week two of our 52 week bible reading, we'd like to dedicate this blog to reflecting on what we've read that day or that week. If any verses or chapters stood out to you, if you have any questions, or anything at all, you can post them here~

I guess I'll start the first reflection about my first week doing the Bible reading ^^

Last week, I read about how much God loves me in Genesis 1-3. During creation, God loved us even before he created us. It seems like he put the most thought and effort into creating us. For everything else, he kinda just spoke them into existence. But for humans, he put a lot of careful thought and actually created us in his image and made us rule over all of his creation. He blessed us and gave us everything. (ch1 v28) He loved us so much that he just gave us everything, all the beautiful work of his hands.
I wonder if God knew of me during this time, when he was creating Adam, if he knew my name? Probably =) .

And even after Adam and Eve fell away from God by sinning, he still showed his love for them. Even after they broke his heart by doing the one thing he asked them not to do, what kept God from just wiping them out and starting over? Or better yet, not creating any more flawed humans? But no, he proceeds to make clothes for them to cover up their nakedness! (ch 3 v 21) Wow. This blows my mind!!!! O.O

Thank you, God for loving me despite all of my flaws and brokenness. You see everything, yet you don't hesitate to cover me in your grace and redeeming love. I love you, Lord.

~ Manuela